I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
There are times when nothing helps.
I had the kind of week where I lost sight of the big picture. Autopilot kicked in and each day bled into the next, with little change in my mood or outlook on some major life changes that are looming on the horizon.
Meditation, exercise, writing in my journal, affirmations; none of it worked.
What frustrated me was that I felt more on track and confident in the last month then I had in a long time. Why the sudden turn around?
Then, I saw this:
I fell in love with “Chandelier” as soon as I heard it a month ago. Sia makes great music and I’ve adored her for awhile now.
But watching this video was a different experience.
Do you remember what it was like when you sat on a swing and pushed yourself as high as you could go? That exhilaration? The glee and wonder of it all?
I spend so much time analyzing, contemplating, second-guessing; just plain thinking myself into circles. All the while, I’m standing still, locked in a perpetual state of worry.
Sometimes, don’t you want to just get up and spin around in circles or jump up and down on your bed, like you did when you were a kid?
The pure reckless abandon of spins, jumps, and playing endless games that you invented, is what makes being a kid so damn incredible.
Watching this video brought me back to those days, but it also pushed me forward. Maybe I won’t run around my apartment leaping from furniture or throwing myself on the ground. I definitely won’t try doing splits anytime soon.
What I can do is learn to let go of all that tension I carry around, and to live in the moment. For no other reason then to embrace the idea that the we’re only guaranteed today and we should truly live in the time we have.
We have ups and downs and sometimes our circumstances make it hard to shake off the bad energy. I’m a realist and oftentimes a pessimist (there, I said it). There’s no harm in cutting yourself some slack to do something, anything that makes you feel like that kid on a swing trying to get higher off the ground.
When was the last time you felt free and joyful like the young girl in the video?
What are you thankful for this week?